Just as how God tested Abraham’s faith by asking him to sacrifice his son Isaac, I believe God tested my faith in a similar way, hence the title My Isaac to the Lord.
Sacrifice of Isaac painted by Caravaggio in 1603.
Readers not familiar with the story of Abraham sacrificing Isaac will find the summary below enlightening.
Some time later God tested Abraham. He said to him, “Abraham!”
“Here I am,” he replied.
Then God said, “Take your son, your only son, Isaac, whom you love, and go to the region of Moriah. Sacrifice him there as a burnt offering on one of the mountains I will tell you about.”
Abraham took the wood for the burnt offering and placed it on his son Isaac, and he himself carried the fire and the knife. As the two of them went on together, Isaac spoke up and said to his father Abraham, “Father?”
“Yes, my son?” Abraham replied.
“The fire and wood are here,” Isaac said, “but where is the lamb for the burnt offering?”
Abraham answered, “God himself will provide the lamb for the burnt offering, my son.”
And the two of them went on together.
When they reached the place God had told him about, Abraham built an altar there and arranged the wood on it. He bound his son Isaac and laid him on the altar, on top of the wood. Then he reached out his hand and took the knife to slay his son. But the angel of the Lord called out to him from heaven, “Abraham! Abraham!”
“Here I am,” he replied.
“Do not lay a hand on the boy,” he said. “Do not do anything to him. Now I know that you fear God, because you have not withheld from me your son, your only son.”
The angel of the Lord called to Abraham from heaven a second time and said, “I swear by myself, declares the Lord, that because you have done this and have not withheld your son, your only son, I will surely bless you and make your descendants as numerous as the stars in the sky and as the sand on the seashore. Your descendants will take possession of the cities of their enemies, and through your offspring all nations on earth will be blessed, because you have obeyed me.”
What Abraham did was one of the greatest acts of obedience known to Man. Obeying God is often a struggle, because it may mean giving up something we truly want.
God’s purpose in testing Abraham was to deepen his capacity to obey, and thus to develop his character and strengthen his commitment to Him. Just as fire refines ore to extract precious metals, God refines us through difficult circumstances.
Similarly, God allowed me to go through the fire of refinement and He gave me the grace to surrender my Isaac – Nicole – into His hands. Hence the title My Isaac to the Lord.